I strongly believe that I’m called to the United States. I see and hear a lot of people talk about going to the Nations and around the world bringing revival and it hurts me to the heart because I see all these preachers and evangelist going to all the other places of the world as if there is no need here. My question is if everyone goes around the world to bring the Gospel of Christ then who will spread the Gospel in the States? For now my current mission is to show my family the ways of God in word and in deed as well as maintain a pure and honest relationship with the Lord. Missions really begins here where I am, and with time, the Lord will give me the desires of my heart, because I know He places those desires in my heart. I just plan on following each desire at a time, and wait for God’s time so that I’m on time and not my time. John 6:44 He will raise me up and is the author and the finisher of my faith. Once I got a word that said I was a shepherd, and have the heart of the Shepherd, that will go after the one once the 99 are safe. I will go after the outcast, and the ones that no one else will go after.
At times I feel as a Pastor when I deal with some individuals and I also like to minister to the people that no one else has time for. I know it is a Godly compassion because the desires and things that occur in my new life would have never been of my old nature, so I can see Gods nature growing from the inside out.
When it comes to faith, God requires our all. God has really been stretching me in the area of growing my faith and learning to trust him even through the storm. Hebrews 11:1 tells us” Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” It is all too easy to become discouraged when you’ve believed God for something and you don’t see the promise come to pass. God however wants us to stay strong in the faith and dream the biggest dreams we can dream and trust his word. Galatians 6:9 tells us that in due season you will reap a harvest if you faith not. We have to become so filled with faith and stand on the word of God and trust that God does watch over his word to perform it. Faith pleases God. When you act in faith God can intercede on your behalf and bring to pass your greatest desires. My greatest battle this year has been to continue to trust the Lord and believe in a dream that seems as if it has died. But God…” ‘Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.’ He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it to life eternal. ‘If anyone serves me, he must follow me; and where I am, there my servant will be also; if anyone serves me, the Father will honor him. ‘” (John 12:24-26). Our confidence must be in the word. 1 John 5:14-15 “Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.” When God gives us a dream, when we execute our faith we can rest assured that He will make it come to pass. When we grow to faith he will honor us for our trust in Him.
This past month of internship I’ve learned a lot about planning… and how plans never goes the way I plan. I’m very big on planning things: my day, my week, my month, my year. You get the picture. However, I’ve learned that I can plan as much as I want to but God always has his own plan! I’ve learned to be flexible, more flexible than I’ve learned to be in just years one and two of RBI. I’ve learned to be ready at any time, any place, to do anything! That’s ministry. Just need to follow the leading and guiding of the Holy Ghost! Oh. It’s been a stretch!! But it has helped me in so many ways! Its help me grow and die to my flesh more than a few times. Die and die and die again to my planning flesh, but as it says in John 12:14, “Verily, verily, I say unto you, except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abides alone: but if it dies, it bringeth forth much fruit.” I must die to bear fruit in my life. SO that is what I have learned this month in internship.